Dribblings of the mind

Okay, this has been on my mind for forever: what's the difference between having a friend online and having a friend 'in real life'? You might be like 'wtf, isn't it obvious? you big silly'. Well...it isn't.

I've been thinking about it for a while and what makes someone your friend? How well you get along with them, things in common, shared interests, a feeling of closeness. Dude; you can get ALL of that from online interaction, I honestly can't comprehend how people still find it weird as hell to have internet friends and partners online included. Okay so internet relationships [lovers-wise] is seemed as a lot weirder because there's no physical contact, yeah? Since when did sexual things and tender hugs form the basis of a good healthy relationship??

It's important and very lovely, yeah, but it isn't needed! That isn't what love is about. That's like someone saying they can't be in a relationship if there's not much sex or no sex at all. I know what you're thinking: why have a relationship without sex at some point? I'm not in favour of that cause you know...sex is cool, but again, it isn't needed, just wanted.

What's the definition of a relationship? What forms the base of a relationship? What's the deeper meaning? For me, it's about a mental connection, a shared love for one another, whether you're properly in love or just adore them to bits. You can love someone online just like you can love someone in real life too, I really don't see what's so different about it.

Imagine the person you're seeing in real life, yeah? You don't seem them for ages but they're online with you, you're still communicating, connecting, interacting just like you would in real life. Unless your relationship relies heavily on sex, it isn't the end of the world.

This brings me to long-distance relationships as most online relationships tend to be with people hundreds, maybe even thousands of miles away. This is another reason why it's seemed 'weird' and 'ridiculous' to be with someone online if they don't even live close to you. I agree with the fact that the further away they are, the suckier it is and sometimes being with them all the time online really doesn't replace them being with you in person. However, I didn't say online relationships and long-distance relationships weren't hard, they're just not something to get worked up about as to me, it's different, yeah, but completely normal.

The internet has come a long way from the days where people were terrified of paedophiles and sex offenders to a place where you can connect with people from all over the world via. instant messaging, social networking sites and email.

In conclusion (wow, essay...), your online friends, they're people just like you, sitting at their respective laptops, desktops, mobile phones; people just like you, whether they're physically with you or not. They're not 'from the internet' because that sounds like they're some kind of 'things' that exist only inside the computer. They're people, people like your 'real life' friends! The fact that you haven't met them takes nothing away from your friendship. I really don't get how the two are majorly different.

Physical contact is fucking awesome seriously, you guys know that anyway, but you can be borderline ok without it. As we're very used to physical contact, it's upsetting if we don't get it with the people who we want it from the most but don't despair, they're still going to be there for you.

Online relationships aren't just for geeks who can't get any in real life and it pisses me off that some people think like this.

Okay so I realised people can't actually reply to the posts I do on tumblr, especially if they're not members... Kinda annoying as I like when I get comments, like on here.

Easiest way to reply to me would be to have an account and reblog it, adding your comment.

I love that thing.

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I'm vegan mainly because I don't wanna be involved in the process of slaughtering animals.

I think it's a good idea that things such as animals have other 'uses' to benefit us but the cost of such a thing is way too great for me, I wanna eat something that hasn't been put through torture for me.

I'm really proud to be vegan and it's still tough for me. I don't want people telling me to not make a fuss of it or that it's stupid; I changed a big part of my life for my own benefit so I can say whatever the fuck I like about being vegan.

"People don't make a big deal out of eating meat", know why? Cause it's very normal to eat meat. Being vegan or veggie...you sacrifice a lot so why shouldn't we be proud? I don't get people that say stuff like that.

Just like people who think gay people need to shut up about being gay when others don't go on about being straight... Do you know why gay people are so proud? Because it used to be fucking illegal to like the same sex, and look how far they've come. "It's gotten better now so why are you still proud about being gay?" because it's still a sensitive issue that a lot of people are still very against!

Why do we have black history month? The same basic fucking reason that we have gay pride. It's a celebration of acceptance, a chance to be proud of what you are.

If you say you're straight, people won't care because it's 'normal' and people are very used to it. If you say you're gay, that's different because, in my opinion, you either have to not care at all or be brave to tell someone you're gay, especially someone who could judge you harshly for it. Telling someone you're gay could potentially mean that you lose some respect or even someone you value.

Gay...vegan....they're both things that exist and that a lot of people are but it's still unusual, so just let us be proud.

I'm vegan and I'm also bisexual, but I'm most proud about being vegan cause it's something I've chosen to do at the expense of the life that I had been so used to living ever since I was born. I didn't choose to be bisexual but I chose to be vegan so it was a lot harder.

Okay so a couple of days ago I got a tumblr account and will be updating it a lot more than this blog because it's much easier to update quick things I wanna tell or show people.

I'll still be using this one but mainly when I want to do things that are more than just little updates on things I find funny or that I like.

The link is here so come follow me if you like =] http://sticksothy.tumblr.com  I've already posted a few things on there.

If you're not on it you can still comment me and things but it's the easiest way to join that I've ever seen: email address, password and make up your own url name and that's it!

Catch you guys soon, I'll do a post on here really soon.

x

Fastest time I got was 34 seconds.

Click on the image and it'll take you there.

I promise to post more too, I've been really slack, sorry. XD

I was in the middle of an anime and I felt I had to do something about this...

Note: for people not familiar with anime, characters 'lose their eyes' a lot if they're sad, mysterious, or someone important not yet introduced...something like that.

This first one is from the anime Bokusatsu Tenshi Dokuro-chan which is by far the most hilarious anime I've ever seen! The sweat suit has 'pedo' at the front and 'phile' at the back.

A sweat suit for paedophiles, simples.

The next one is from Kamichu and I don't know if this is normal in Japan but if this is what I got for xmas, I'd be pretty pissed:

P.S. get looking at my Twitter story account to see how my story's going www.twitter.com/julexi

A guy I know - not important who - got out of London early this summer to escape demons that were encapsulating his life. He took a flight to somewhere hot where he could try and sort himself out and come back feeling a lot better.

He told me he was going to be there for three weeks, but he still hasn't come back and it's been three months since he left.

I started getting worried in July and planned to contact his mum to ask if everything was okay but decided maybe he just thought he'd spent more time there and he was fine, just enjoying the sun, the adventures, the company.

Then it was August and I literally thought something really bad had happened to him - like, you know...death - but still thought I'd give him time. What caused me to worry to such an extent was no contact from him even after texting him.

Then earlier on, I decided I'd contact his mum and visited her blog to look for her email address, but then I realised that he had been mentioned, so naturally, I read it. I read the archives from round about the time he left so I could keep track of how he was doing.

While he is still alive, he isn't in the best of shape and it's all a bit of a mess. All I want right now is for him to come back and for everything to be okay...

I'm just really glad that he's alive, you guys have no idea... Reading his mum's blogging about what he was up to and stuff made me very concerned and at times, rather tearful, but he isn't dead!

I would rather not detail why he's in a mess and things cause it's not really anyone's business, so I won't be telling you if you ask me.

I wish I could do something to help but I can't do anything, he's somewhere in east Asia and I'm here... Things are being taken care of anyway so even if I was there, I wouldn't be of very much help, I suspect.

I care about this person a lot, more than I thought I ever would. It's because the things he's been through touched me and the result of knowing made me care, almost maternally.

He's older than me but I feel like taking care of him and doing my best to help even if it's something small like letting him know I'm here for him.

When he was in London, he'd ring me a few times to let his frustrations out or just to talk to someone, I miss that.

It sucks that I don't even know when he'll be back....IF he'll be back. Or if he'll get out of it alive.

He's been through very similar situations before and he made it back so maybe it'll all be ok?

Sorry for being so vague, I just want to respect his privacy.

I wonder what he's doing right now... please be ok. x

Mainly from me...

"Imagine if one of us suddenly turned into a giant penis..."

"My armpit just farted."

"That is SICK!! Oh my god...that is sick!"

"...Is it weird that I just want to watch anime now?" -- Me minutes after the fest. ended

"Next time I want to join a circle pit and just totally lose my shit."

"Imagine if when we slept, we retracted ourselves into our bodies and had extra flaps of skin to close us up..."

"Aw sheesh, y'all."

"Reading Fest., I've returned!!" -- Me upon entering the fest. on the first day

"Know what I want right now? Some Ginger Nut biscuits, tea, anime on fullscreen, press play and sit back..."

"Imagine some people were just sleeping in a tent and some guy came in and started rolling around on the floor."

"Imagine some people were just sleeping in a tent and some guy just ran into it and half the tent came apart."

"My [infected] eye's tired...just the one, though."

"Would you rather kiss a sloppy monkey or swallow a goldfish?"

"And can I have four sugars?"
"That's disgusting." -- My mate's mum when I explained how I had my tea

"The more you speak Japanese at me, the more I wanna watch anime..."

"AW HELL YEAH!!!" -- Me on a fair ride

"Oh Dave Grohl" -- Hannah when pointing out Dave Grohl and Josh Homme's new band onstage
"Eh? Where's Dave Grohl?" -- Me
She points at the screen
"What? Where?!"
"Drumming!"
"Thats Dave Grohl?!"
"Yes!"
"Dave Grohl!!!"

"I can SEE other people's SHIT!" -- Me after using a toilet where all it was was a hole, a big hole.

Oh and P.S. I think I've given up on youtube vids of the week, I'll just post a good one when I favourite it, which is often anyway! I think I just dislike deadlines...

This one I watched and favourited ages ago and only recently have I found and liked it again.

This guy is one of the first people I ever subscribed to on youtube because he makes me laugh a lot and his videos are random as hell, literally. They rarely make sense and are extreme and crazy...just take a look:

This is makemebad35

This video has had me in tears and the fact that it's over something so minor makes it funnier!

On his profile he has Jim Carrey as an influence and I can see why, not especially in this video but the loud nature of his humour is very Jim Carrey.

5/5

Was hard to choose this week actually... I was going to pick a video from a new channel I found cause she's funny but none seemed to stand out, but THIS video shown to me by my boyfriend made me laugh a LOT! The lyrics are so funny!

5/5 for lyrics alone, man!

I won't link to the channel cause it isn't a proper user channel like the others were and there's only a few Slipknot vids on it...

Psst: one of the related videos after this is finished is Hoobastank - Inside of You...it's good, watch that too if you're into rock music or songs blatantly about sex. :P

I felt like doing another Lexi and Julian talking thing, I like playing them. ^_^ Lexi and Julian are the two main characters from a book I'm in the middle of writing by the way, a blurb is here.

"Aaaand we're back! Hey, Lexi here, never Alexis.. The last person that called me that is currently scattered in various places around the south of England. They'll never find where I hid their arms..."

"Um..."

"I felt like having a dramatic opening! It worked though, how creepy was that? Uhh! Gave myself the chills!"

"Slightly vain but okay... Hi everyone--"

"I already did the introduction."

"You did, yeah, I didn't get to!"

"That isn't my fault, Julian. Can we just carry on?"

"What the hell? I get to do one too."

"Fine, go ahead..."

"Right, like I was saying: hi everyone! It's us again, did you miss us?"

"They missed me."

"I'm not done! Ahem. Anyway, we're back but this time we don't really have a subject to talk about, so we're making it up as we go along."

"Done?"

"Yes."

"Why are these chairs so uncomfortable?"

"Cause you have a bony ass."

"Someone can't keep their eyes off it! Hint: this guy."

"Shut up, like I care about your ass."

"Everyone else cares, one less person doesn't really affect anything."

"You only have 'fans' because you can play the guitar."

"Correction: because I can play guitar better than anyone in the whole school. That isn't even me being vain, I swear, I've heard a lot of people and they suuuuuck!"

"Ahem!"

"Oh, not you though, you're alright."

"'Alright'??"

"Good? ....Hey, don't look away from me, I didn't mean you!"

"I'm in the school though so that must mean I suck."

"I said I heard a lot pf people, not everyone!"

"You've heard me though, so that still must mean I suck!"

"You're misunderstanding! Here, have some gum, it's strawberry flavour, mmmm!"

"I'll take the gum but I don't forgive you."

"Then no gum for Julian."

"Fine, I forgive you!"

"Lame. That apology wasn't real."

"Why are we even arguing? I was kidding, I know you think I'm good."

"Damn right, but I realised this is the last one, I thought I had more...so I want it."

"Alexis..."

"What did you just call me?"

"A-Lex-Issss."

"I'm only gonna let it go cause I like you and I know you're joking but stop it."

"Let's just tell them a bit more about ourselves?"

"Yeah! Let's like take turns and say one thing about ourselves."

"Okay, you first."

"Naturally. Okay: I really like gum."

"I'm more than good at guitar."

"I'm better."

"I like anime."

"I have a little brother."

"I have a little sister."

"I can't stand bad dressers."

"I'm a vegetarian."

"I've got a lip ring and a nipple ring."

"If you wear your shirt too tight, does it irritate your nipple piercing?"

"You sir, are a pervert."

"How is that a pervy question??"

"You just asked me about my nipple sensations!"

"You're horrible, let's move on."

"Haha what the hell? You started it!"

"You took it the wrong way!"

"Mmmh, which way would you like me to take it?"

"I'm leaving, this is too weird."

"I'M KIDDING!! Come on, sit back down and we can have a proper talk, yeah? Julian....Julian! Okay whatever, you guys have just got me now! It's kinda boring without him though so I have an idea: tell us what you want us to talk about next time? That'd be cool. I like making things up but a general direction would be cool too, okay? Comment under this thing, do it!"

Lexi will personally lick you on the neck if you do what he says: FACT.

...Meet and have a proper conversation with Marilyn Manson.

I'd like to, really like to ask him things. Things I couldn't ask him like this - where the closest I am to him is viewing a .jpg photo of him from the other side of my laptop screen.

I'd want to 'get deep' with him: discuss religion and other influences he has that maybe not so many people know about. Things not as blatant as religion and the media.

I wouldn't want anyone else there, just a one-on-one thing with no interruptions or words from a nameless character holding the title of manager that could deviate the conversation from its original path.

I wouldn't want to call myself a Marilyn Manson fan if we had this conversation, just an admirer of his work; 'fan' sounds a bit too 'fanatic'. I could be a fan at one of his gigs, I wouldn't mind going crazy with all of the other Manson fans, the moshers, the girl in a Manson tee too big for her with the caption 'God of Fuck' on the front or the guy with way too much hair and a beard, silently appreciating the music without going too crazy. That's a 'fan' atmosphere, a talk is not.

I want an intelligent conversation, I don't care what his favourite colour is or if he has any pets. I care about what drives him to be what he is, how he's managed to do it for about two decades without losing touch of what he's about and what goes through his head when he's playing a show.

Marilyn Manson is such a complex and intelligent man, he's intriguing, entertaining and meaningful. His lyrics hold within them a mixture of thoughts and expression. Religion. Love. Media. Society. Death.

So, Mr Manson, speaketh your words.

If only...