No, this isn't a plee for one or something silly, so get away if you think it is...go on, get awaii! Homophobes can get right out too.

Basically, I've been thinking about this a lot since my last relationship and I might never get a chance to have a girlfriend ever. This isn't one of those 'I'm straight but wanna see what it's like from the other side' things...if those things even exist, which they do. Shut up, I can make sense...

I have never had a relationship with a girl or gone beyond a kiss but because I'm more comfortable with picking up guys, that's what I'm likely to be doing for a long time and all I wanna do is see what it would be like to be with a girl. In my last relationship, I wasn't allowed to do anything apart from kissing with girls (which, let's face it...the guy was entitled to that rule) and in a way I thought, if that relationship were to be a long-term thing then I would never get to experience that for ages and it would be a bit restricting,

I only want it because I only properly admitted to myself that I was into girls when I was 16 and for all those years it's sort of been pent-up frustration because I wouldn't admit it to myself and now that I have, I want to explore.

I want to try and explain myself more because I know what a lot of you could be thinking:

She's doing this for attention
She's fucking about
I'm convinced she's straight but just wants a bit of fun
She's bored

All of those are false.

I wasn't even gonna blog this but I've not had much to blog about recently and am more reluctant to blog when I don't have my precious laptop...

I watched this documentary on BBC 3 about this woman wanting to see what it was like to be a lesbian, but she was stright. It kinda made me want a girlfriend more actually, but it was really interesting. It explored the idea that all women can have lesbian feelings and I agreed. I kind of want it to be like the documentary but with me actually being bisexual, not straight like she was.

I wanna see how much into girls I really am and to see what it's like to be with a girl because if I never ever get to experience that, I'd feel like I've missed out on something I could have really liked. I just don't wanna lose that opportunity, you know?

Oh and this doesn't mean I'm giving up on guys or don't want a boyfriend next, I'm just saying it'd be pretty awesome to have a girlfriend for a change.

...Goth girls and girls that are rockers are hot.