Apparently I was a screamy, shouty, annoying fangirl about WWE wrestling from when I was about 11 til when I was 14 [cause I remember being damn enthusiastic throughout them years].

I'm still shocked at this and that I could ever say anything as bad and fangirly as this. I was 13 and was recording myself reporting back on Edge having an injury and getting all emotional and idiotic about it. That wasn't even it. I go and do one of the top 3 things a fangirl is known for doing [I don't actually have a list but, it's a big thing!] I get extremely upset about things involving his wife and at one point wish for her death! I said it in a very sarcastic tone but it was obvious I was angry.

The quote is:

"They're gonna go on a honeymoon and try for a kid *sniffs and bangs on table* I want to scratch that lady's face off, I don't even know who she is. This is the thing that I've been fearing the most - Edge and his wife might start a family...aww so cute! No! Well, it is but...not with her. Oh well."

I then say something like, "Edge, have a good time...and Allanah, just die!" [think that was/is his wife's name....I've not looked him up like that in years].

I know me, and I don't think I was joking either or else I wouldn't have made a big deal about it.

If I found someone like that now, I'd want to punch them in the face. Obviously yeah, I was young and I have nothing to do with that now but christ....that's so bad! I still have a look of disbelief on my face and I heard it about half an hour ago!

Bad mini me!

The thing is, I had NO idea I was like that! I have no recollection of ever hating his wife or being extremely annoying in reference to the WWE! When I heard me crying over them having a honeymoon, I thought it was because I found it really cute and sweet, not sad!!

Shit, am I gonna look back at me now when I'm 25 and go, "Jeeeesus, I was SUCH an idiot back then! WHAT A FANGIRL!" Because obviously I can't tell when I'm being one... But I am more aware! Like, as a child, I didn't think at all about what I was doing, I just went with it!