At about 5.05pm yesterday, I watched a horrible animal slaughter video on youtube called Meet Your Meat. I watched it because it was a link from a video that Johnny Durham did on vegetarianism.

I wasn't even going to watch his video first off cause the title was 'Reasons to be Vegetarian' and it put me off cause it seemed too forceful like he was forcing his vegetarian ideas on other people. I only decided to give in and watch cause I wanted to watch all the new videos from my subscriptions and that was one of them. I thought, you know, usually he's a funny and witty guy so maybe it would be okay.

It wasn't funny or witty.

His video was alright and yeah, it gave reasons why you should be a veggie and stuff then he added that there was a link in the sidebar to a video that he thinks should be watched after about animal slaughter so I got intrigued and was like 'oooo, give'us a look, then'.

I was interested in what happened to the meat we all eat before we get to eat it and I wasn't prepared for what was put in front of me. I had a vague idea of what happened but to watch it and see all of this going on....it made me cry several times. It started with that little crying where your eyes just leak then it escalated to actual crying and I had to pause it to go and wipe my eyes. Why I played it again, I don't know...I guess I just wanted the full picture.

I don't really want to put it on here cause the video sort of tells you to become a vegetarian a bit and I don't wanna force anything on anyone. If anyone's interested in it then yeah, I'll link it to them.

I sort of decided then and there that I wanted to be a vegetarian.

I toyed with the idea when I was slightly younger but thought, 'animals sort of live for us to eat them, don't they?' cause I was TOLD that and I was a lot more naive back then. In a way, yes, they are living for us to eventually eat them, that's their main life purpose but does it need to be like that? We can live off stuff that doesn't have to be the after product of them being tortured and various others etceteras. Also, do they really need to be treated so badly? It's really fucking horrible. I also dismissed the veggie option earlier in my life cause I figured I really neeeded meat to survive cause I'm kinda skinny and thought I'd be better off with meat. I do admit, that was mostly just an excuse to myself.

I know obviously that me going veggie won't mean they'll stop killing the animals in such disgusting ways but at least I don't be a part of it, and that's for my own personal satisfaction. I don't want to go ahead and eat something, enjoy eating something that's been through a horrible, barbaric ordeal.

In a way, I think it's selfish. How dare I eat something with an eager smile on my face that before was just an innocent thing roaming about then killed brutally...just to enjoy eating? It isn't to survive, it's to eat something. If we depended on them for actual survival then yeah, it'd be more acceptable cause we have to live too but when we have other alternatives, really...there's no need.

I'm trying not to force my ideals on people by being too explicit and detail what happened to the animals in that video or anything and I really don't want to come across as being a preacher either. This is just me explaining why I don't want to eat meat anymore.

I'm giving up a LOT of my favourite foods just to feel better about myself, these include pepperoni pizza [of which a lot of people know I love], ham and cheese baguettes, lasagna, chicken drummers, burgers, KFC, and a lot more. I crave cheeseburgers all the time when out in London...I shall have chips instead!

I am still going to drink milk [the organic kind cause I've seen what can happen to force cows to keep on producing milk too] and not gonna eat fish or gelatin either. I only really ate cod anyways so I think I'll be ok on the fishy front [ewww that sounds dirty], and I never liked seafood. And I can refrain from gummy sweets pretty easy....marshmallows though, offt! Well, I never really ate them that much anyway, I just love them when I do have them.

I feel a bit weird for writing this all out and getting a bit serious in parts cause...I dunno, it sounds too hippy-ish. I'm still gonna go with it though!

I think being a vegetarian is like not wearing fur and things cause we don't NEED to wear fur or leather when there are plenty of other clothes but some do it just cause they like it.

Think of Quorn like faux fur instead of getting meat and real fur. I've not tried Quorn 'meat' before but I was told some people say it tastes very similar if not the same as normal meat. Know what? I'll just get used to it.

I need a list of popular foods I can eat though, help on that would rock. Gonna start searching online and in Sainsbury's pretty soon.

Oh and I'm a vegetarian but I hate vegetables and am allergic to a lot of fruit....

Can I survive as a vegetarian from now on? Wait and see!

Oh and I hate Johnny Durham for this cause I didn't wanna get influenced, but now I have been! ...He's a cool guy though and check out his videos on youtube! :>>